(a rough draft of an idea I’m developing)
As a little girl, the Madeline books by Ludwig Bemelmans were, for quite some time, unquestionably my favorite. I have a Madeline doll, longed for a school uniform with a little navy jumper (and eventually got my wish), and my mom made a red jacket for me to match my doll. I wear it with a wide four-year-old grin in one Christmas picture, holding my baby sister close and tight, joy and love written across both our faces.
I remember loving how Genevieve rescued Madeline from the Seine, and how I adored the antics that did always seem to get Madeline in trouble with adults. And yet it wasn’t until I re-read the book today in a return to The Magic School Primer that I noticed something at first unsettling and then quite wonderful: I always empathized (or wanted to, anyway), with spunky, brave Madeline who explored and wondered at the world. And I guess in some ways that’s who I sort of wish I was, intrepid and silly both.
But I’m not. I’ve most definitely become Miss Clavel, and really, I was all along. I love my stories of feisty, spirited, brave heroines, don’t get me wrong. But that’s simply not who I am. I’m not Merida. I’m not Anna. I’m not Madeline. I’m not Anne.
I’m Miss Clavel. I am there to catch Madeline when Genevieve pulls her from the water, to make her a cup of chamomile and tuck her in and scold her. I am a teacher, an adult, a caretaker.
But here’s what I didn’t remember, a little secret: Miss Clavel breaks the rules, too. She isn’t as perfect, as rigid as she first seems.
The Trustees, including Lord Cucuface (best name ever, and used to make me laugh over and over), show up for an inspection and immediately send Genevieve, heroic dog though she is, out of the home. Lord Cucuface even mutters something about the dog’s uncertain origins that sounds vaguely racist, like a judgement of people more than pets.
Miss Clavel cannot stop what happens at that moment, but when little Madeline announces they can waste no time with tears over the loss of their dog, Miss Clavel doesn’t forbid the girls from searching for the dog. No. She ignores the Trustee’s directive and takes the girls through Paris to find Genevieve. They don’t succeed that day.
And then Miss Clavel wakes in the night, turns on the light, says, “Something is not right!”
And she opens the door to find Genevieve waiting just outside, and welcomes her in.
Miss Clavel isn’t the strict schoolmarm to rebel against. She’s the secret rebel, the one who listens to her intuition in the middle of the night and who won’t accept rules that don’t fit, that aren’t right for her twelve little girls in two straight lines. And, in doing so, she allows her twelve little girls to be brave and courageous and a little foolhardy at times. She does the same, only it goes unnoticed.
It is, after all, the quiet ones you have to watch out for.